Just had near death experience. Things have changed since then. I used to Flaunt about "What type of dare devil I am and facing death is just a normal thing for me." etc.(More this kind of Brag.)
It is true that I have faced many crisis, riots, fire, gang wars but... things are different now. At the age of 32, I can not behave like 23 year old rebel. I have my family and kid to look after. Almost for a decade, I have not touched any weapon. Now I don't fight any useless wars. Now my fingers play with keyboard instead of Knives.
I create Softwares and I have learned that Creating something is much more satisfying than destruction. I am busy with normal routine and my small scale business.
I was so engross with normal city life that I have forgotten about small things like taking out time for daughter, Playing games with her, taking her out at night to show stars or just being there for her... to listen her, to know about her school, friends and everything that bothers her.
I am too busy with social responsibilities that I almost neglected my family. When I faced fear of death then only I realised that it is not enough to perform duties of bread earner but I have to give my family my time and many things...
I have lived a thriving life and have much more to share. Yesterday, I took my daughter out at night around 11.45pm. I showed her stars, told her some stories. I just can not forget the look she gave me, her eyes were beaming with wonder and enthusiasm about the universe.
Who am I ! I am not only a technocrat who loves to play with gadgets and computers. I am not a machine. My knowledge is not limited to computers, networks and everything that is digital.
But somehow I forgot... I don't know when it happened but I stopped talking about songs, shers (urdu poetry), poems, star gazing, wild animals, birds, plants....
God ! What has gone wrong ? Life is beautiful... It has been many years I have stopped going in the Jungle. Climbing the mountains.. being near nature.
Since I got a chance now.. I will make everything right. God! just give me enough strength.
Let me be the one, you have chosen me to be.
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